Stress, stress, stress
That led to a migraine
Which made me feel like shit for a few days.

Now you should know that I am a worrier. So much so that I’ll stress out, most likely get myself under the weather for no particiular reason. Also when I worry, I tend to shut down. I did that for the past week. I lost track of time to the point where I found myself asking “what happened”. What happened? I always joke about being really late about things, but it was really bad this week. I knew what was going on, but to save me my sanity, I blocked it out. Of course, I couldn’t do it entirely, so it would come back and hard.

I’ve been pretty miserable as of late in terms of health. Who knows why; most likely stress related. But don’t worry, I’ll be all right. So far, part of what I’m worried about is slowly working out. We won’t know until at least another week.

Thanks for your patience.

Tags: stress

How much I hate Intershitoka Exploder? It was working peachy in IE when I first coded the site. Then I get a comment from Emsz saying it’s all messed in IE. What the deuce? Since I already posted my site on rev.iew.me already, I had to get to that ass before someone else with IE7 gets to it first. Thank you, Emsz, and it should work now.
Tags: layout, stress

I had a job interview tonight.

Yes, that’s right, tonight. As in 8pm Eastern Daylight Time. As in 8pm normal-people-are-getting-ready-for-bed time. Yes, I also said “what the fucking hell?”

The job is an office assistant position in a theatre/studio venue. Basically they help people find spaces for their performances. It’s in the perfect area too–the Theatre District in Manhattan. If you’ve been an avid reader, this is excellent–I’d be exposed and surrounded by theatrics. Yes! I got the message yesterday to come in tonight, so it was an impromptu interview so to speak. I hate those. Today was worse.

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Tags: job, stress

I am in copious amounts of pain right now. Let’s start from the head and work our way down…

1) Now I have problems with my jaw getting bitten up pretty badly. At first, I thought it was my wisdom teeth just snagging onto the inside of my cheek. This happens on the right side only. As a result, I have a really nasty bruise on the right side of my jaw. It gets bitten up at night, especially when I’m stressed about something. I’ve been under a lot of stress, but I rarely talk about it here, or to anyone offline for that matter. So naturally, it’s getting a lot of abuse. Then I wake up and my left side is bitten up. Not to the point of the right side, thank goodness, but there’s a noticeable lump, and it is painful. All stress-related, I’m sure of it. To make matters worse, when I press down on the outside of my jaw on the right, there’s pain. Wonderfuckingful.

2) A lot of muscle pain. My arms, and my legs especially. My right leg is ridiculous. I can barely walk on it. Stretching it out causes pain. So right now, I’m pretty uncomfortable while sitting on my bed, and laying down is no better.

3) For a few weeks now, my right hip would hurt off and on. I don’t know why, since it wasn’t this hip I fucked up when I fell in front of a Mobil snack shop that has a Subway in it. So I don’t have a clue why this one’s fucked up.

I’m also in a lot of emotional pain. Like I said, I have a lot of stress, then something happened last night and made it even worse. I have a cryptic explanation at my friends-only livejournal, but I will say this–woman’s and Piscean intuition is a powerful thing, and should never be underestimated. And I’m pretty much left with sarcasm, a pen, and no chocolate. Wonderfuckingful.

Tags: health, stress, wonderfuckingful