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One of those days…

Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to dig a super deep hole and just hide in it? Then when you hide in this hole, you just never want to leave it?

Yep, that sums up today.

I love my fiance. I really do. And he loves me. He really does. But I now know why so many long distance relationships don’t work. It gets lonely, no matter how often we talk to each other. A day doesn’t go by where we don’t talk. We make each other happy, that’s what matters, right?

Some days I just fear though, that he can’t take it anymore and break off the relationship because we are apart. I know that this is an unrealistic fear since we’re gonna be living together soon enough, but it’s something that goes through my mind. And strangely, it’s something that’s gone through his mind. What if I find someone else? I don’t want anyone else. I just want my nerdy, pervy, crazy ass teddy bear!

So what it boils down to is that this is a relationship that works even though we’re apart because we’re trying. And it’s not going to become a dead end like the rest of my relationships. Just gotta keep counting the days until we see each other again. It’s coming up very soon. Can hardly wait.