Good news, and…confusing news.

The good news is, the MRI results were in, and the head stuff is clear. No tumors, no blood that’s not supposed to be there, nothing. I’m not sick in the head.

The confusing news is, what the fuck’s causing the migraines then?

It probably wouldn’t be as bad if it responded to some kind of medication. I’ve gone through Imitrex and Maxalt. Neither worked. Well actually, the Imitrex gave me the nasty side effect of shortness of breath. Which, in turn, scared the shit out of me. But either way, it still didn’t help. So now I get these headaches off and on for as long as two weeks (yes, now it’s gone up from week-long). It’s annoying and it interferes with life, or the lack thereof. But it interferes regardless. A lot of people suffer from migraines. My boyfriend does, actually. I’m not sure what he does to get rid of it, but he does. Most people can respond to treatment effectively. What makes me different?

I know my triggers. The main one is when I’m awakened from a deep sleep. That is out of my control, thanks to family members barging into my room with no warning and no lock on the door to prevent that. Caffeine doesn’t trigger, nor does it get rid of; drinking Pepsi in case of a migraine is futile and only contributes to caloric build-up in my body. Darkness and complete quiet will only trigger fear in my body (I allow you to laugh. I’m afraid of the dark and quiet–I sleep with a nightlight and music.). Although, I will say that even if I didn’t have those normally-irrational fears, only certain lights (such as florescent–which means I can’t be in my basement for too long, and even my room light that’s a mere 40 watts) triggers headaches, and sounds do bother me, but it usually only bothers me when someone is talking in my left ear (the migraines are always on the left side), or if I have a sound source (such as headphones or my cell phone) too close to my left ear. Heat definitely is a trigger, and considering that Mother Nature has been on her daily rag for the past few days in NY, I’ve been having a bit of a hard time. I kept myself in air conditioning so that it didn’t come on full-blown.

I don’t get it. I seriously don’t. I’m sure that a lot of people think I’m nuts for obsessing over what could be a migraine and nothing else is underlying. But now there’s only one other thing to consider. I just need to make that appointment with my doctor again. Mixed in with other conditions that are less-than desirable (most are TMI; I won’t go there), it kinda makes sense.

Hormones. Sounds like an episode of Mystery Diagnosis. Or I’m just that fucking stubborn.