No Motivation, ducked the quack.

All right, I really need to start blogging more often. I was working on my Livejournal, and that took up a lot of time. Man, that layout was a bitch. Aaanyway, I’m planning to bring that one here. Good fucking luck to me.

Okay, my quack of a psychiatrist upped my dose again. Her excuse: “no motivation”. I say, “you’re full of shit”. You try being somewhere where you aren’t getting paid to be forced to go. You try getting up at 8:30 in the morning to go somewhere where the vast majority of the people are twice your age. Try dealing with boring ass people. Fuck you. I know where my motivation lies, and this place has gotten…stale. To the point where it’s almost molding into oblivion. So shut the fuck up about motivation.

Seriously, this woman is getting on my last nerve. She’s a complete idiot. This is the same one who said “do your websites on paper.” Chyeah, you tell me how to do a website “on paper”, and I’ll do it, fucking genius.

I’m thinking of a center design for Project 739. I was telling Angel that I have an idea of how I want it to look, but it’s the matter of finding an image to go with the theme of the site. I’m going to look some more, and see what I can find. Hopefully I can find something decent. Hopefully.

Since n0madic.net is going to be expiring in 13 (?) days, I needed to redirect the portfolio somewhere. So where shall I redirect it? Then it hit me. Here. Lemme explain. A few months ago, I was constructing another secret project. It was called Dear X, which was inspired by one of Lavish‘s boards. It was one of those areas where the members bitched to evil customers, evil bosses, and even evil yeast-infected coochies in letter form. Now, I could have thought of a million people to write this “letter” to, so what happened? I don’t know actually. I guess I just gave up on the idea. Sounds familiar? (Even though I’m thinking of probably redoing Unpleasant Dreams…maybe under another name? *shrugs*) So maybe I’ll be doing some serious multi tasking with Phase 1 of Project 739, the new Unpleasant Dreams, and the portfolio, (probably unfortunately) named Melodramática (“melodramatic” in Spanish). Long story about the name. It was supposed to be Rhapsody, but I liked that one better, and I didn’t completely get rid of the Rhapsody idea. Chyeah.

Anyway, I’m not in the best of moods today. I probably won’t be in the best of moods tomorrow…or the next day. I will explain it in the LJ (which will be friends only because a few people online already knows about this site, and they need not to know exactly what I’m thinking right now), but let’s just say that this is almost the worst I’ve felt since March. Of course, I’m keeping it under wraps from the doctors, because I’ll be damned if I go back into the hospital again.

…So much for hope.